I have been going to therapy on & off since my mother died in 2001, for various reasons.
Some obvious. Others not so obvious.
I have kept a journal my entire life and when I heard about blogging I was intrigued to say the least. It seemed intimidating to publish my thoughts, but I considered the feedback I would get as ‘therapy’ if you will. I welcome the feedback good or bad. Hell my therapist tells me when I am being an ass. It’s constructive criticism.
A while back I blogged about a situation with my ex-husband and his new wife. It was one of my first posts.
I have only created one blog about a recent situation that I encountered with them and have been hesitant to write more. I do not want this blog to turn into a rant against the obvious. I am a divorced woman who doesn’t get along with her ex-husband. Go figure. I often say we did not agree or get along when we were married so why would we get along now that we are divorced. We should just agree to disagree and call it a day.
The other day I started to write a new post and found it to be another post about something that happened once again with my ex-husband and his wife. I sat down at my computer after being awake all night and at 4 am composed another ranting blog about the craziness of my divorced life. I saved it to my drafts and went about my morning never actually going back over the draft or posting it.
It is almost a week later since that day and I have little desire to add it to publish the piece. However I am left feeling as if there are things I want to say or write about that may at times reference my struggles as a divorced woman. It is just not my style to bitch and complain about my life. I am not a martyr. I am not someone who sees the glass as half empty. I do not complain endlessly about my path in life. I do know that I am where I am today for a reason. I have come to be more understanding, more tolerant, and far more grateful for all that has happened in my life. Loss births understanding of ones strength in ways that isn’t fully understood while the event is fresh. Time trite as the saying goes, heals wounds or scabs them over enough to put things into a reasonable perspective.
So I am curious as to acceptable blog posts and if ranting gets you anywhere? How many posts have you started only to let them simmer on the back burner or you dashboard never to get published? Or how many have you posted that perhaps you wish you had considered at greater length before publishing?